Posts tagged transition
im official!!!! Name change went through yesterdaY!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im puuuuuummmmpppppeeedddd :] if you couldn’t tell. Im most excited about my new license. no gender marker change but my pic is new and now no longer confusing as all hell.
its been about 2 months(4 injections) of doing my own shots. I use to have someone do them for me but I lost contact with that person so I had to learn to do them on my own. I’m doing them in my leg now and although its freaky to put a 11/2 needle into your own leg it hurts a lot less than having on put into your butt cheek. haha. but for reals. Besides for the freak muscle twitching that happened yesterday everything has been going well. My Endo said that doing my shots on my rear would absorb better but the blood tests that I get every so often prove there is no difference. i guess as long as you are doing them right everything is cool.
on a side note: I pass 99% of the time, even at the doctor’s office. haha. shows you how often people look at that little F on your chart. Still praying that one day I will make enough money to pay for surgery. Im applying for a better paying job now and if I get it Im hoping I can save enough by Christmas of 2012. I try not to dwell on it for too long. Good things come to those who wait, i hope :]
Ive been on T for like 9 months but ive always had someone else do them, mostly cuz I can’t reach my butt :]
but now im gonna start doing them in my thigh. I stick needles in cats all day for work, it shouldn’t be a big deal……….but im suuuuuuuper nervous about it. Shhhhhh, but don’t tell anyone, ok?
so I have this lump forming on my jaw. first i thought it was a T thing, like asymetrical bone growth cuz its on my jaw. but it hurts to touch and I can move it a little but its hard. idk. I waiting to hear back from my endo to see if I need to go see him in Portland or if I should just go to my normal Dr. My face looks all weirdy now, like crooked almost. haha. Anyway, coming up on my 5 months on T :] workin on a voice compilation for my 6 months. and 5 month pics to follow shortly. Later Gators
4months and like a week on T
Changes:
deeper voice
body hair ( on stomach, face, and legs) a lot more in each area
sex drive is more consistantly higher, not as dependent on timing of shot
muscle gain = stronger
facial structure changes, more narrow
Ps: I have my phone consult with Dr. Garramone on Monday. Finally gonna find out how and when I can get surgery. One step closer to shirtless at the beach……who am I kidding. Im going to be shirtless all the damn time :] true story
so im moving forward with figuring out when/how i can have top surgery. Ive been in a funk for a few weeks about just about everything. It was just a general “i don’t wanna do anything” kinda deal. Now that im out of it and re-motivated its time to get shit done! With the help of my gorgeous GF im gonna get the pics of my chest taken and get the other pieces im gonna need to e-mail Dr. Garramone. Also, im gonna work on my resume so maybe I can get a better job so I can pay for this surgery ;]
Wish me luck. Being a procrastinator blows, hard.
Changes that I have noticed:
Hair: all on my chin, and not “peach fuzz” either. blonde mostly with small amounts of brown. also some hairs on my tummy.
Facial structure: my cheek bones are more pronounced, my face seems more angular.
Fun Fact: i was denied beer by a vendor at a Red Sox game because my i.d. didnt look enough like me. frustrating at the time but it shows progress :]
Voice: def deeper, my voice cracks a lot ( much to the pleasure of EVERYONE around me ;] )
Sex drive: its more controled, its def higher that first week but then normals out the second week.
Acne: i get some, mostly on and around my chin :[ but im trying my hardest to control it. Its not that bad anymore. Im pretty sure my body is adjusting to the T quite well :]
New pics to follow soon, whenever I can get my hands on a camera or web cam
So I am in the process of posting a new vid on the Youtube, as usual its being a bitch so Im waiting. I also just sent an e-mail to Dr. Garramone, the famed FTM top surgery master. I was asking how far booked he is. I just need a time line, and possibly a date to look forward to. I don’t think i can last another summer in three layers of clothing. Yes I said three, shirt-binder-under shirt. Im allergic to the binder, ironic huh? Anyway, I just need to see how long im gonna have to get the money together and that it will work with my future plans, more specifically my gf possible plans. She may be going into the peace corps and i want to have it done while she is still here. I dont think i can do it without her. Oh, and a little Ps to my last post- my voice cracks like whoa all the time. Its adorable. lol
Kbye
yesterday was my two month mark. Changes are there but harder to see, at least for me.
My facial hair grows back in like a week or so. Its def more coarse (if im spelling that right haha) and more numerous.
Voice is changing too but hard to notice for me.
Sex drive is still closely linked to timing of shot.
More growth in the Southern Hemisphere ;]
I have also noticed that I feel calmer, even for me :]. Everything seems to be slowing down and seems more clear to me. If that makes any sense at all :]
so Im 3 days shy of my one month mark. Randomly today at work my jaw started hurting, like I had been chewing gum for like three hours. Then my throat started to hurt like I had been talking forever. I would have been upset about it but that means that my voice and face are changing :] Good news for me. Just wanted to share. Later
